And where am I?

where am I in this zoloft drenched haze that I seem to function in?Function hardly. I know , and have known for a long time that this "harmeless" litle pill is indeed killing me. not in a physical way, but in a soul -ripping and- tearing -spirit- numbing kind of way. By fixing the depression , this medication is stripping away my soul, my creative element, which is at the very core of my spirit,
the one reason to live.......hmmmm what to do?